Do Some People Need To Fight To Stay Together?

From my observation, maybe some people do.

I have been in and out of a relationship. I have seen my friends. I have witnessed my closest family in and out of love.

From what I see and observe, people sometimes feel bored if they don't fight. There is one of my friend in uni, let's name her L.

L : Aku bosan la. Rasa nak cari pasal dengan boyfren aku.

I : Awat pulak dah? Dah duduk elok - elok. Tiba - tiba cari gaduh. Hehe.

L: I need entertainment. I'm bored.

L have been in a relationship with her boyfriend for quite sometimes. I think I understand what she feels. She said she needs something.

To keep her going.
To escape from her daily routine.
To escape from their daily texting.

And that makes me think. How do people survive marriage life? Marriage is commitment and routine. You wake up in the morning to the same person. You did the same thing everyday. Nag about the same thing. Love the some people even if they annoy you, makes you cry.You commit to it.

Can I survive my own marriage? Sometimes I wonder what my mom and my father think about this.
Do they get bored?
Can they survive each other?
Does morning breath annoy them?

I don't mind routine. I really do. I think routine makes us sane. Makes us human. I love waking up to the same person. Get him ready to work. Pray behind the same person. For me, marriage is more than that.

I asked A about this.

I: Awak, awak ok tak tengok muka saya setiap hari? Muka saya ja yang awak tengok bila balik dari kerja?

A: Ok ja awak. Tu impian saya.

Monday Blues

Assalamualaikum semua,

Patutnya kan hari sabtu dengan ahad ada banyak kenduri kena attend. Tapi aku end up tak pergi mana2 pun. 

Aku memang jenis yang malas pergi kenduri. Haha. Pergi pun kalau ada kawan yang nak join sekali or mak paksa. Selalu yang mak paksa ni mestilah yang adik beradik punya kenduri. Adik beradik belah mak memang ramai. Banyak yang dekat Perak. Kali ni malas nak ikut sebab nampak dah mak nak kenen kan aku dengan orang perak. Tak nak la. Aku takde mood nak buat fake smile dan senyum ja bila orang tanya aku bila nak kahwin. 

Aku end up standby kat office tunggu vendor datang. Nice kan. Haha. Ahad pun lepak rumah ja. Kemas rumah. Bawak mak pergi kedai beli ikan. Lama dah mak tak masak. 

Rindu.

Semalam kan comel sangat abah mengomel ngadu kat aku. 

Abah: Kakak, abah bosan la makan kat luar. Abah nak makan apa yang mak masak. 

Aku: Takpala abah. Meh akak masak kan.

Abah: Tak nak. Abah nak mak. *muka sayu*

Dalam hati aku, amboi abah ni kita nak masak kan untuk dia, dia tak nak pulak. Hehe.

Aku: Abah bagitau la mak abah nak mak masak.

Abah: Abah tak mau paksa mak. Mak tu letih pas balik umrah. Kesian dia sakit. *muka sayu lagi*

Terus aku rasa nak nanges. Sedih tengok abah kunyah slow2 roti canai yang dia baru beli kat kedai tadi. 

Aku tau abah rindu. Sebab aku pun rindu masakan mak. 

Dua minggu mak abah pergi umrah.. Aku masak sendiri lauk pauk yang ada. Pergh bosan gila kot masak sorang, makan sorang. Tak ada orang nak gaduh kat dapur. Rasa kosong sangat.